Racist?

hahahaha!! lawak giler when someone said aku pilih kasih.. why? sebab aku kawan ngan budak2 cina je dalam kelas.. (my friend was only joking that time.. she also has lots of chinese and indian friends like me.. it just that someone said that to her, then she suddenly remembered me as we are in the same boat :p) haahahha! mana ada pilih kasih.. it just that, i'm not racist like most citizens in our country are... actually, why being a racist? all of us are human, and will be human forever and ever.. kita bukan pokemon ke, digimon ke yang suatu hari nanti evolve jadi benda lain.. yang membezakan kita just gender.. satu lelaki, and satu lagi perempuan.. (or maybe intersexual... and plz remind that IS is also human OK.. dont discriminate).. we do have our own races, our own religions, and our own lifestyles.. but those are not reasons for us to become enemy.. (i think that's the fun aspect when u have friends from different races.. you can learn their culture and also their languages~)

currently hoping that i can speak mandarin and tamil... i can only understand few words right now... (English pon tergagap-gagap, nak belajar mandarin and tamil plak.. aish, boleh ke nadhra?!)

p/s: i hope people in this country can accept each other.. jangan ada prejudice..(dont judge a book by its cover; so, dont judge a human by his race) bagi aku isu racist in timbul just sebab salah faham antara kaum.. kita tak beberapa mengenali kaum tu, and diorang pon x beberapa mengenali kaum kita... if all the races can become friends, and understand about the other races and accept them well, the word racist will never exist in our country's dictionary.. i bet it!

ended dramas

2 dramas ended last week.. flower boys n also the musical.. n i hope there will be no new dramas that catch my eyes after this.. if not, i need to find a new hardisk as mine already full.. my computer is becoming slow already due to all these entertainment..

the one rule

the one rule u should follow..

once u said bad thing to other in front of their faces (either u meant it or just for a joke), the very least u will get is the very same treatment from that person... so, think twice if u wanna make joke on other bad traits...

p/s: better if u make jokes on your own bad traits.. u can escape from conflicts there...

aku nak...

a keyboard!! or a melodica! hahaha.. wanna ask my mom to buy 1 for me.. (use my money lar, just asking my mom's help in buying it... aigooo)
wanna learn playing piano... again... (i used to learn it by myself.. but after a few songs, i abort the study.. now i can't remember a thing)
guitarlele.. hoping for one since last year... (T..T) xda duit.. huhu
finish study gyne.. seems like impossible to me
n finish my case summary by this week... (arghhh!! stress!!!)

Gyne posting

who said gyne posting has lots of free time? who da hell is that!? busy giler!! no time to enjoy myself.. as busy as during PCM posting.. hmphhh


p/s: i hate doing case summary report... malas nya aku!

Ombak Rindu

..... mengecewakan....

they try to compact many scenes from book into 1 scene in the film.. so, jadi sangat serabut n kelam kelibut.. then, they change the storyline as well.. kecewa.. kecewa giler! watak utama shouldnt be given to Aaron Aziz.. dia x pandai bawak watak jahat.. so, tak nampak sangat perubahan watak HAriz dari jahat ke baik tuh.. n Maya Karin tried her best, but still, not enough.. Lisa Surihani just great dalam melakonkan watak Mila tuh.. so does Bront Palare as Mail.. n I hate the pengacara n Datuk Sufiah.. ntah pape.. but, one thing i like.. the song and the cinematography are perfect! nice..

overall, kalo dah baca novel Ombak Rindu, esp kalo baru baca recently, maybe u wouldnt like the movie much, but, if memang xtau jalan cerita, try la pergi tengok.. it is not bad.. but just so-so..

(dalam xsuka tu, sebenarnya air mata aku menitis jugak.. but not for the leads, tapi for the supporting actors..haha)

My Japanese Dorama

I watch all dramas.. whether it's malay, indonesian, english, japanese, korean, thai, or filipino drama, if i think it is interesting, i'll watch it...

currently, korean dramas are becoming more popular especially among teenagers.. but japanese dramas have been around longer.. as for me, i loved both...

but i love japanese dramas more because it is shorter n compact (except taiga dramas)... yes, if you wanna watch a drama that is full of lovey dovey scenes, a drama about love, or any melodrama, yup, don't watch japanese dramas (but of course u must watch Koizora n Tatta Hitotsu no Koi), choose korean drama instead.. korean are very good in producing drama that can makes our heart flutters, lots of romantic scene, and making us in tears, a bucket of tears... and korean are the best in Rom-Com type of drama.. japanese is not that good in producing melodrama, or romantic lovey dovey kind of drama... BUT they are good in producing drama with other themes/genre like sport, family, medicine, crime, taiga and so on.. they used heavy theme in their dramas.. like recently, I finished watching IS (Intersexual) which is an adaptation from a manga.. then, i've also watched Deep Love, which also a manga adaptation n is more darker (i've difficulty in finishing it because it is too dark).. other dark theme japanese drama are Jotei, Majo no Jouken, LIFE, Zeni Geba (my fav), Orthros no Inu, n Byakuyakou (which is quite disturbing)...

Japanese is also good in making us in tears with their family theme dramas, for example in the infamous One Litre of Tears, in Ninkyou Helper where the yakuza help the old folks home, then in Koizora when the father realized that his beloved daughter is pregnant, in Nagareboshi when the brother married a prostitute to save his sister, and in Bara no nai hanaya when the daughter realised that the one she loved so much is not her father... n please dont say about Tatta Hitotsu no Koi, I cried until my eyes swollen for that drama...

sports dramas are good.. i've never watch any korean drama about sport.. never! (maybe i have not encountered them yet).. but, i've watched it a lot in japanese drama... my all time favourite, ROOKIES is superb.. i can say that i cried at the last episode n also in the movie, not because it is sad, but because it moved my heart... then, there are also H2, Pride, Tumbling, Water Boys, and Wonderful Life..

Dorama about medicine is becoming better and better... from my most favourite Hoshi no Kinka 1 n 2 (my first dorama when i was 12-13 years old) to Iryu 1, 2, n 3; Codeblue 1 n 2 (i dont really like it) to JIN 1 n 2, i can say they are superb!! i remember during my first year in med school i watched Iryu 1 n 2 as preparation before exam.. hahaha! no wonder i got bad result that time (now i'm thinking of watching Dr Blackjack~)

if we think of japanese drama, we will automatically think about school.. why? because majority of the drama revolved around school students and teenager.. who doesn't know the old ones like GTO; Gokusen 1, 2, n 3; Orange Days; then the Hanakimi; Dragon Zakura (remake into Korean drama, God of Study); Hana Yori Dango 1 n 2 (into Boys Over Flower); Nobuta wo Produce; Koizora (again);  Mei-chan no Shitsuji; Samurai High School; and recent ones like Yankee-kun to Megane-chan, and Ouran High School Host Club?

but, currently, dramas about crime are getting many... I can name 10 in a second, but I don't think all of them are good.. the good ones are Kindaichi, Puzzle, Galileo, MR. BRAIN, BOSS, and Tokyo Dogs. Rite now, I'm watching Bloody Monday, but I can say it is not as good as the others that i've stated, but it still nice to watch...

lastly, we can't forget about the Rom-Com genre of dorama... Hotaru no Hikari 1 n 2, Hanayori Dango, Hanakimi, Ouran, Koishite Akuma (eventhough it is not comedy), Yankee-kun to Megane-chan, Mei-chan no shitsuji, Ohitorisama, Mukodono!, Zettai Kareshi, Kimi wa Petto, Natsu no Koi wa Nijiiro ni Kagayaku, n Lunch no Joou, Seigi no Mikata, Sapuri... there are fun, light genre.... n lastly before i forgot, Saiyuuki (not romantic but funny!)

p/s: banyak giler drama yg ak tgok. tu x termasuk yg dah tgok tp malas nak tulis sebab x beberapa best...

Home Nursing 1

going to home nursing makes me suddenly think, what if one fine day, i suddenly got into MVA, n the next thing I realized is that I can't move, n I can't talk...
Who'll take care of me?
What will happen to all my parents' dreams, my dreams, our family's dreams?
Will I become a nuisance to them?
Will they love me as they love me rite now?
Will my brothers n sister ashamed of having me (like in drama IS)?
Will they take care of me, or they just hired a maid who is kind enough to care for my daily need?

All I can say is that, I feel pity towards the #1 patient that I saw today.. he lead a good life.. until one episode of life that caused him to be paralysed... may one day, he can move again n be independent like he was before.. aminnn....

A famous saying that i love

You can only see a rainbow after it rains.....
 so, even there is a storm right now, just wait patiently, because a rainbow might be coming to you.....

My resolution, n I'm stress!

I need to become hardworking again like during my school days
dah letih burning midnight oil
someone already countdown the days for final exam
why???!!!

then, i need to loss weight...
before this, i never think that losing weight is important or needed, but just now, i read a chapter on Obesity n BMI in CPG, n in there, it stated that the relative risk (RR) of getting DM type 2, HPT, CVD, and cancer is 1 to 2 in obese individual.. also infertility n PCOS!
arghh!! i dont want those things..
furthermore, I have a strong family history of young Diabetes (ada ke terminology young DM, whatever)
my dad was diagnosed to have DM type 2 around early 30's.. hmmm... macam mana nih?

then, i also need to control my expenditure.. can you imagine, in this 1 week duration, i've spent about more than RM1000.00!! what the "tuttttt"!!!
how am I going to explain to my parents? how?!!!
and DM is closed for 2 weeks duration.. what to eat? what to do?

I'm stress!!!!!! ARGHHHHHH!!!!!

Rukun Iman n Rukun Islam

5 RUKUN ISLAM


1. Mengucap dua kalimah syahadah.
2. Mendirikan solat.
3. Menunaikan zakat.
4. Berpuasa di bulan Ramadhan.
5. Menunaikan haji di Mekah bagi yang mampu.


6 RUKUN IMAN


1. Beriman dengan Allah subhanahu wa taala.
2. Beriman dengan para malaikat.
3. Beriman dengan kitab-kitab suci.
4. Beriman dengan para Rasul.
5. Beriman dengan Hari Akhirat.
6. Beriman dengan Qada' dan Qadar.


p/s: rasa2 nya dah asyik ingt duniawi punya hal jer macam exam, masalah duit, etc; benda2 yg wajib tau ni maybe terlupa.. ak pon dah blur2 aritu.. nauzubillah.... T..T

Fighters

I am one of the Fighters and I'm proud of it.. the Fighters taught me a lot.. they helped me a lot... they supported me a lot... and only them understood and noticed the scars that all of us were bearing... and with the Fighters, I fought.. fought to redeem my honour, to redeem everything that I lost in the last battle... and then, this second battle began.. after two months of preparation, it ended.. and like in every war, there were fallen Fighters..who did their best, who struggle for success, but, only God knows... sometimes, luck is not always with us..

But, the fallen Fighters are indeed the best! without them, maybe i've lost long time ago.. without them, maybe i could not regain my strength for this battle... without them, i'm just a fragile Fighters...

Honestly, eventhough i won in this fierce battle, yet i'm sad.. all of the fallen Fighters are my friends.. friends that i care, friends that i love.. so, i'm quite shocked with the result.. and i cannot imagine a life at UM without them.. maybe i am not their bestest friends, maybe i have never hanging out with them every night at mamak, or maybe i am not close enough with them that they can share their secret with... BUT i do have nice memories with them.. eventhough it is little, but enough to make me care and think of them as my friends, good friends...

trust me, i love u guys,, i hope u guys do fine,, and show all that u guys deserve better and u guys are the best! do ur best and make the Fighters proud...

p/s: two months were a long period... in this two months we care for each other... and in this two months we shared our problems, shared our feelings about how 'people who win' percepted us... how some of us felt like HIV patient.. how we understand truly the word 'stigma'... 'people who win' will never understand us, our hardship, our feelings.. thus among us we supported.. and till the end we'll support...

my love, my heart

The 2 Doctors

there are 2 doctors that i adore n respect the most...

prof Jamy n prof Hany


both of them are excellent in knowledge n nice towards patients..

hopefully i can be like them both.. XD

new chapter of life

well, for a month i cannot get access to my blog b'cos i forgot the pw for my mail.. arghh, wateva..

life?

when i see others, esp my friends who are already entering their new chapter of life; graduate from uni, get a job, having their first salary, getting married, having a child, buy a house or cars, send money to their parents, etc; i kept thinking, why am i, the only one who's lagging behind? still studying, still need to beg my parents for money, still need to go to class wishing to be graduated on time, having nightmare on exams, still asking help from family even for small problems, still daydreaming, still getting jealous on others for small2 things etc... why?

i know.. God has His plan... i shouldn't ask why... i shouldn't get jealous of others' life... my future life should be better than them, eventho rite now i'm suffering... hopefully, my life would be wonderful... as wonderful as i dreamt everyday... as wonderful as i prayed... and i will be the happiest person on earth!

Beloved Friends

My friends are true friends... and i glad i met 'em...

Hmmm...

what can i say, i am still in shock...

the very exam on my birthday, kill me juz now...

it is such an easy exam, but still, what can i say.... it such a silly mistake...

so, my mood is getting down n down after this...

sorry if i dont smile back if u meet me...

i am such person...

Weird

Weird when seeing someone too obsess in sumthing......weird why am i too obsess in internet.....they just,,, weird.....

1n2d

beside needing to feel nervous n praying hard for my exam result, i decided to go home..
well of coz, i brought my Oxford Handbook, my buku kuning, notes, etc, but u know, it is difficult to study at home..
with every morning need to layan neyo n anak2, need to kemas bilik everything, with laptop on my lap.. it is very difficult..
but one good thing at home is, i could not connet to internet..
well, we used broadband obviously, n we need to fight for it everytime we need to used it... then, as i stay at kampung, the line is so severe that we only get EDGE with 2 bar (people using broadband will understand this) n only at 3 - 4 am we get HSDPA only at certain area in our house...
so, i could not open my FB, my Twitter, blogs that i follow, etc... so, less time surfing the internet as i usually do..

so, as i coming back to UM, the first thing i did is opened my laptop, get through UM WIFI, then FB, Twitter, download anime, then 1n2dfansubs.wordpress....
then i read, 1n2d is coming to an end in 6 months.... WHATTT???!!

1n2d is my fav program since 4 years ago, at Pasum... (im not sure, mayb during 1st year).. i downloaded n watched it every week... i even watched the re-run on KBSW.. n i can brag that i have almost all the ep of 1n2d from ep 27 to 200+ (currently 212).. i watched the MCs from their first day with awkwardness till today where their closeness should be jealous by others...

thus, this news is so sudden for me... i know, one day, 1n2d will come to an end.. but i never thought this soon.. (TT__TT)

my mood is getting bad n bad.. hmmmm... hopefully i might find my joy next 3 days...

Friends

thanks guys . . . i had a great time . . . u guys sure cheer me up . . .

a Happy birthday to me

maybe u expect me to be " yayyyyyy ! ! ! "

sorry, u r wrong . . .

this is the worst birthday i ever had . . .

exam is killing me . . .

i never felt that i ' m going to cry , except today . . .

i hate it . . . i hate myself . . . i hate my laziness . . .

i felt ashamed of myself . . .

ya Allah, berikanlah hamba-Mu ini kekuatan untuk menghadapi semua ini...

i want...

a lomo ! ! !

hopefully someone can give me a lomo . . .

fell in love with it today . . .

( ' . . ' , )

Feelings

now i know how great Allah create human being

with lots of feelings they can have....

p/s: love reading others blog n tumblr.. XD

rite now.. i am feeling desperate... exam is killing me, n makes me wanna open my blog more often.. hurmmmm...

Final Exam

I hate thinking about exam

coz, im not prepared

but

it keeps hunting me

even in my usually beautiful dream

aghhhh!!

p/s: i dont want to repeat the whole year... i want to 'rag' juniors too.. huhuhuhu... dont spoil my dream...

p/s (p/s) : eventhough i used to rag juniors (x rag pon.. buli sket2.. ak dulu kena lg teruk), i think i am one of the few seniors that love junior earnestly...

i am a Clown

once, my friend said, u're a clown

without u, no laugh,

silence...

yes, i am a clown

do you know a story about a clown?

Clown is a happy person

she hates silence n awkward moments the most

she is a chatty

a joker

bring joys to others

makes people laugh

eventhough she needs to act stupidly in public

eventhough she needs to make fun of herself

she wants to bring others happiness

But,

don't u ever think

behind that smile

she might be crying

crying in silence

crying for a happiness

cying n hoping that one day

she might find her own Clown

that can makes her laugh honestly

that can makes her laugh heartily?

TT__TT

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

hmmmm . . . . boleh saya nangis ?

kk6

ahhh!! bestnya internet laju!! mcm mna nk stadi nih??

last day at Klang

well, pertama sekali saya nak bagitau yang "I HATE PACKING!!"

i donno how i managed to pack last time n i donno how i will managed to pack this time..
i found things n things that i donno still exist before,
i found lots of things that i should throw away wayy before,
n i found out that i have lots of toys from mcd that i put in my drawer...

but, one thing for sure, today might be one of the most fun day at Klang..
we had BBQ, thanx to Din,
we had my fav kerang bakar, eventhough i allergic to it,
we had ayam bakar, sosej bakar, sosej rebus,
we had lots of things...

some were playing guitar,
some were playing ukulele,
some were singing...

it is not an everyday view of medical students life..
so, it is quite fun...

thank goodness i had all these super nice, and fun colleages..
if not, my U life might be boring as hell..

so, THANX A LOTS GUYS!! I LOVE U ALL!!! XD


p/s: after this, FINAL EXAM!!! arghhhhh!!!

Saya bosan

Saya bosan,

saya bosan dengan Klang
saya bosan dengan bilik saya
saya bosan dengan meja saya yang semak dengan buku2 yang xabes dibaca
saya bosan dengan internet yang lembab
saya bosan dengan Facebook
saya bosan dengan Twitter
saya bosan mendownload
saya bosan menonton drama Korea
saya bosan menonton anime yang panjang (except Gintama)
saya bosan membaca manga
saya bosan bermain gitar
saya bosan menyanyi lagu yang sama setiap hari
saya bosan mendengar mp4 saya yang playlistnya sama sejak 3 bulan lalu
saya bosan melihat dompet saya kosong dengan duit
saya bosan dengan makanan DM
saya bosan dengan TV yang rosak di bilik TV
saya bosan memikirkan exam n EOP
saya bosan memikirkan immunisation, heart failure, n asthma
saya bosan dengan otak saya yang x ingat apa yang saya dah baca
saya bosan dengan sikap saya yang malas
saya bosan dengan kebosanan saya

ya, saya bosan dengan diri saya sendiri...




(deep inside, i feel grateful that we're moving to UM.. x kesah la 2 orang satu bilik ke, 3 orang satu bilik ke, at least i got a room.. x macam 6 week dulu, kena duduk luar.. kena duduk Vista.. it was not easy to take bus every early in the morning, to lintas jalan every evening, kena guna duit lagi to buy food, transportation, sewa etc.. so, i just feel thankful that i got college.. n i think others should too..)


p/s: jatuh cinta dengan UM sejak kali pertama jejak kaki kat situ during PASUM... n of course, fell in love with Mid Valley also~

Exam

why we need exam? who created exam!? Arghh!!

Mumu said, the China created it..

but still, why we need exam? are the EOPs not enough?


(a cry from a person who does not prepare for her up coming final exam..)

TT__TT huhuhu

Going HOME

i'm going home tomorrow~ yayyy!! woohooo!!! super happy!!!

hahahahahah! XD

eventhough exam is near the corner, i still think home is the best place to me...

here at klang, sometimes make me become a hateful person

sometimes i hate people, and sometimes i make people hate me

but at home, i love everybody, and everybody love me eventhough i do lots of inappropiate things..

love you HOME!! <3


(i wanna bake japanese strawberry shortcake for my family, and chocolate brownies for my friends.. please wait y'all~)

the Amars (aka, NUNS)

kuragehime rocks!!!!

i am wondering whether one day, i'll become like them.. the Amars....

manga addict

currently reading manga by SHIMAKI AKO

she's the best!!

the plot is good n not rubbish like others..

she does not need to sell all those kissing scene, tears, hugs, smut, etc, etc..
the plot are nice, not pushy like other shoujo mangas..

the first manga i read from her is 1/3 kareshi n i cried while reading it.. not because it was sad, but i was stunned by the artwork n storyline.. it was sweet n beautiful..
then, i also read uso to koi no hajimari.. just sweet..

but the best yet is pin to kona.. i love it the moment i read it
not like any other shoujo manga, the story is from the main guy's point of view...
it is funny, n i learnt a lot from it.. (learnt about kabuki).. the heroin is not as soft, as beautiful, or damsel in distress, (or boyish..eg in hanakimi, ouran) as others typical heroins.. she somewhat attractive in her own ways.. if i want to compare, i will compare her with the main girl in beauty pop.. both of them are soo cooll!!

luckily, currently they only released 3 chapter for pin to kona.. if not, i cannot study lar..

Cooking!

yes, i love cooking~ (xcaya sudahh~ saya xkesah~)

thinking of making Japanese Strawberry Shortcake and Sugarless Cake (for my dad, since he is a diabetic)

bila la boleh balik umah?
rindu dapur ak.. huhuhu

last time, i succeed in making Choc Brownies n Cream Puff..
but failed in making Choc Chips Cookies.. (xkeras.. cepat sangat masuk angin)

this time, i'll make sure i can make extra nice n fluffy Strawberry Shortcake

minna, matte ne~

*being a girl is nice.. you can learn how to cook, n how to bake.. u'll learn how to sew, and how to decorate.. u can also learn things that guys do.. in my case, as i'm the eldest, i did lots of things that girls my age do not do. i used to repair pipe at my house, repaired the toilet, my lovely tv, i used to cut down trees around my house (help my father actually.. bukan buat sorang2), used to help my father made our fish pond, helped my father built the 'rebans' for my rabbits and chickens, used to farm (ala, tanam bayam je pon.. senang jaga) etc.. but, that does not mean that i cannot be a good girl.. i also cook at home, sew clothe for my sis, did lots of 'cross-stitch', n other houseworks.. so, i think, it is nicer being a girl than a boy as a girl can do both things that boys n girls can do.. (susah nak cari lelaki yg duduk dapur, masak... tambah2 lagi lelaki yg mengait or wat cross-stitch..) yay! girl's power!!

Rosery

Prof hany told us about Rickety rosery..
then she pointed at me..

P:"you, what is rosery?"

N:"something reddish in colour?"

P:"no, i want in malay.. rose?"

N:"emmm, kerose-rosean maybe.."

P:"nonsense! it's tasbih la.."

N:"errr..."

that's why you need to be good in English.. wah! malu siot...

Selamat Hari Bapa

Selamat Hari Bapa ayah!

minta maaf banyak2 sebab terlupa..
Nadhra ingat Hari Bapa minggu depan..
xsangka minggu ni...

minta maaf banyak2 sebab xbagi hadiah..
JPA xmasuk lg..
takpa..
nanti JPA masuk, ayah mintak la apa saja..
tali pinggang, kasut, baju, seluar, semua boleh.. (tapi pilih satu ja la.. hahaha)

Nadhra doakan ayah panjang umur, murah rezeki dan sihat dan bahagia selalu bersama mak..

:)

*actually, there's nothing that i can say to show my love for my father.. there's no word big enough that can present my love for him.. there is no present in this world that is enough to give to my father for eveything he had done for me, except that i can only say, "I love you dad.. since the day i born.. since the day you cooked porridge for me while i was at the hospital, since the day you carried my at the back while cycling, since the day you bought me a computer, since the day you took care of us siblings while mom gave birth of adik, since the day you cook for me roti canai telur and nasi goreng, since the day you change your school so that it is easier to send me to my school, since the day you made my teachers know that i'm Rifangei's daughter, since the day you won't allow me to study oversea eventhough you were the one who sent me to the interview, since the day you sent me to PASUM which was the first time i cried in front of you, since the day i cried everyday at PASUM because i did not get good result for Physics, since the day i entered medical school which i hate at first coz i'm really bad at Biology, since the day you give me courage,.. and until now, and until i'm old, and until forever.. i will always love you dad.. and my love will become more and more with each day... wish you all the happiness in this world.. Selamat hari bapa, ayah.. Nadhra sayang ayah...

the advantage of staying far from home

b'cos i was so depressed, (sebab x balik rumah)
i was thinking of the benefits of staying far for home..

i present u all my lists;
1) have many good friends, truly good friends (they are the BEST!!)
2) becoming more socialize... (kalo dulu, i was a nerd that rarely speak to others..huhu.. i will only speak to the other geeks like me)
3) get courage to speak to guys.. (suffer from androphobia for 7 years b4)
4) can do lots of challenging activities that normally my parents won't allow me to do (eg hiking, backpacking)
5) learn to use money appropriately (b'cos here, u support urself, no one will help u if ur money habis already)
6) learn to sleep late at nite (usu at home, 2 am is the latest; but here, sometimes i dont sleep at all)
7) due to lack of sleeping, learn to get up very late in the afternoon (aish, xpatut2.. jangan la aku wat macam nih)
8) learn getting back to hostel late at nite; esp after watching movies (if at home, xberani la nak balik malam2 nih)
9) learn how to take care of oneself (shopping sorang2 pon berani, but, nadhra, dont do this anymore, it is super duper dangerous to you!)
10) learn how to shop! i love shopping!!! JPA, please come faster!
11) learn how to enjoy your life as a university student!

Rajin

Seems like everyone become rajin suddenly this month..
even on weekend, i see my collegues go to the ward.. clerking patients, examine, etc

i know that the final exam is around the corner

but u all make me even more stressfull!!

errrr.... Nadhra, rajin la sikit macam diorang semua.. shiken da dekat nih...

ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!

On hiatus (DOWNLOAD STATUS)

oleh kerana laptop saya sudah keletihan,
saya memberhentikan aktiviti-aktiviti mendownload saya buat sementara waktu...

jadi pada sesiapa yang menginginkan video2 saya minggu ini, harap maaf...
diharap bersabar...

List: (edit on 16/7/2011)
Drama
- Juvana
- Can you hear my heart (postpone)
- JIN2 (postpone)

TV Shows
- Maharaja Lawak (trying hard to finish it... btw, love JOZAN!)
- 1n2d (will neva stop downloading it.. already follow this show since 4-5 yrs ago)

Anime
- Gintama
- One Piece (wait till i have time.. postpone..)

miss u

I miss my home soo much
I miss my mom
I miss my dad
I miss Ami
I miss Iki
I miss Adik
I miss Neyo
I miss Bulan
I miss my anak-anak (Dino, Manja, and Gucci)
I miss my room, esp my bed and my table.. i do everythings in my room
I miss my living room.. where at the evening i'll lie there reading a novel
I miss my family room.. where i see my bros n sis smile n laughing while watching tv
I miss my parents' room.. where i see my dad asleep because he's too tired.. n my mom folding our kain n baju
I miss Ami's room.. where once was my bedroom for 10 years
I miss Iki's room.. a place where i once played computer games everyday n then he will halau me because i semakkan his place
I miss my kitchen.. a place where i'll bake brownies n cream puff for my family, while Neyo watching my lovingly
I miss my wet kitchen.. where my anak-anak calling for me everyday, wanting me to pat them
I miss my garden.. i haven't seen my garden for long time because the holiday is always soo short
I miss my pond.. where once Neyo fall into it while trying to catch a fish
I miss my attic.. where i once did a very good job decorate it so that i can study there with my siblings
I miss every little grass that surround my home.. i played there once with my friends
I miss the coconut trees behind my house
I miss the rambutan tree beside my house
I miss the manggis tree in front of my house
I miss jambu tree n also the mempelam tree near my house
my siblings and I always panjat those trees before
I miss my mom's cooking
I miss my dad's smile
I miss playing with my brothers
I miss gossiping with my sister
I miss Neyo sleeping on my lap
I miss Bulan stealing Neyo's food
I miss my anak-anak running in my house from Neyo
I miss my days before getting here...

I am fragile without my family..
Without my family, i'm nothing..
Without them, i'm juz a body, without soul..
Without them, i'll cry...

Mom, Dad.. I'll try my best not to disappoint you.. but sometimes, i disappointed with myself.. i need you.. to help me move forward... i need you.. to give me courage... i try to be cool, but sometimes i will also cry... pray for me, so that i have a stronger heart to overcome all these...

new posting

yess.. neww posting!
welcome paeds into my life!
i hope i'll love you forever n ever..

(praying hard not to get fierce n scary lecturers)

amanah

dah melaksanakan amanah td..

hhahhaha.. jgn salahkn ak..
ak cma wat ap yg dsuruh jerk..

XD

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c e f g

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crita Thai : crazy little thing called love

baru je abes tengok citer 'crazy little thing called love'
citer Thai
n apa yg best nya ialah, some of the parts in that movie, menunjukkan realiti..

the story is about a little girl, tak la cantik.. biasa2 je.. gelap, but good in English
then, she likes a guy, her senior.. lebeyh kurang 3-4 tahun lagi tua kot..
n that guy is super hot! semua pompuan kat skolah tu suka dia la

that girl does lots of things to get the guy's attention.. luckily, she has 3 good friends, who support her from behind.. kawan2 dia la yg bg smangat, bg dorongan, ajar dia macam mana nak berubah untuk jadi cantik, bergaya, demi lelaki tu..

but, as we can see nowadays, once a woman gets a boyfriend, she usually tends to forget the friends.. it's a reality.. mmg jarang la kalo nak tgok pompuan2 yg dah bercouple ni kluar dgn kawan2 pompuan dia.. kalo kluar pon sebab boyfriend dia xda kt situ..
(but in this movie, she does not couple wif the hero la, but still kesian kt kawan2 dia)

spoiler


but actually the guy likes her since dia tak lawa lg.. he doesn't need her to change for him, but he appreciates what she did to capture his heart.. tapi, dah takda jodoh, so, berpisah la diorang.. tapi pastu diorang jumpa balik n happily ever after~

realiti,
realiti yg ak maksudkan dlm crita ni ada 2..
pertama, girl tends to forget their friends when she gets what she wants (esp a bf lor)
kedua, pompuan mmg akan buat apa saja to get their crush's attention... but sometimes, orang xnmpak usaha diorang ni.. ada yg akan senyum je bila nmpak crush diorg tp that guy x perasan pon.. (actually senyum pon need courage yg tinggi tau) ada yg sanggup smbunyi2 ikot lelaki tu pegi memana ke (mcm stalker la plak), n ada yg berani, bg hadiah, etc directly tu the guy..

so, as conclusion.. people have their own way to express their love.. but, before that sumone coming, u already have people that love u just the way u are (ala2 lagu bruno mars.. hahahaha) around u... they know u the best.. but u tend to forget them.. please, as kang ho dong said.. 'i cannot choose my family, but friends are family that i choose'...

love ur friends as u love ur family n ur loved one..

My target this month

baca O n G sampai habes... (i think, i'll never achieve this one.. sob.. sob..)

then, study for medicine.. already forgot everything about medicine.. (it's all CRP fault.. too much 'main' at Taiping..)

then, download BECK.. (y the size is too large! 2GB!! i might die!)

waiting for Runaway Beat~ (hahahaha! hopefully the movie is good cos i wanna watch it for Seto Koji.. XD)

try to find my ROOKIES dvd back.. whoever that borrowed it, i ask u to give it back to me! rite now! (already looking for it for 3months..aish, never wanna let others borrow my things again)


hopefully i will achieve my target.. eventhough for me rite now, it sounds impossible...

Case summary... leave me alone....

ikemen?

Seto Koji














Sato Takeru













Yamamoto Yusuke

Kiriyama Renn

r they ikemen? hmmmm... depends...
some people said their faces too beautiful to be a guy

but their acting is really good..
that's enough for me~

(they are not that famous in Japan but their acting skills are way much better that the other infamous actors there)

Selamat Hari Guru!

esp, guru2 SMKA Al Irshad

guru2 SK Guar Perahu

guru2 kindergarten saya

guru2 PASUM

and lecturer2 UM

dan yang terutama
ibu bapa saya yg mndidik saya
dari kecil hinggalah dewasa

saya sayang cikgu semuaaa~

Gambar Lama

Baru tadi aku melihat gambar-gambar lama aku..

Berbeza jauh..

Kalo dulu nampak innocent, sopan, pemalu...
sekarang dah lain...

ish2 nadhra.. bila nak insaf..
it is not that i'm trying to be another person...
but i like my former self better...

hmmm.. no wonder they said uni life might change u forever..

(p/s i'm missing my old self)

Download

yes, i love downloading...

but, please.. if u want sumthing, cuba la usaha sikit..

i only accept system barter je rite now..

if u give sumthing to me, i'll give u what u want..

only people who had exp downloading know what i feel

esp when Klang's WIFI like this..

sumtimes it took me 3 days to download a certain movies/videos..

so, please understand.. even my laptop nearly crash b'cos of u all...

Malas

Kemalasan aku melampaui batas

kenapa?

kerana laptop ak asyik dok menghadap aku jerk..

ni salah aku ker, salah laptop??

Yay!! lagu baru~

skang ak tgh praktis lgu nih.. so, sorry la kpd jiran2 tetangga ak kalo ak melalak malam2.. hahaha.. tym tu je ak free ponn..

A Goose’s Dream / A Swan’s Dream
Translation by x3Yesung of Soompi

Nan nan kkumi isseotjyo
Beoryeojigo jjitgye
nam nuhayaedo

Nae gaseum gipsukhi
bomulgwa Gachi
ganji-khaet-deon kkum

Hok ttaeron nugun-gaga
tteun-moreul Buseum
nae deungdwi heullil-ttaedo

Nan chamaya haetjyo
chameulsu Isseotjyo
keu nareul wihae


***
Neul geokjeong hadeut ma-rhajyo
Heotdwen
kkumeun dorirado

Sesangeun
kkeunchi jeonghaejin Chaek cheoreom
imi dorikil su Eomneun
hyeon shirirago

Keuraeyo nan
nan kkumi isseoyo
Geumkkumeul mideoyo
nareul jikyeobwayo

Jeo chagapke so inneun
unmyongiran Byeogape
tangdanghi majichi su isseoyo

Eonjenga na
geu byeo geui neomgoseo
Jeo haneureul nopi
nareulsu isseoyo

Ge mugeoun sesangdo
nareul Mukkeulsus eoptjyo
nae sarme kkeutesseo
Na useul keunareul

hamkke haeyo



I have a dream,
Even if I’m thrown away or ripped to shreds
Deep in my heart
I have a dream as precious as gem

If by chance, without a reason,
Somebody ridicules me behind my back
I should be patient
I would wait just for that day.

As you always worry,
You say that foolish dreams are poisonous.
Just like a book that tells us about the end of the world
There’s the reality that we can’t turn back already

chorus:
Yes I have a dream.
I believe in that dream
Please watch over me
Standing in front of that cold wall called fate
I can firmly face it

One day I will pass over that wall
And be able to fly
As high as the sky
This heavy thing called life can’t tie me down
At the end of my life,
On the other day that I can smile, let’s be together